Whirlwind

My life has been a complete whirlwind lately and I am not sure if that is part of my frustration or if something else deep down is just festering. I feel like I have been so busy the past couple of months but honestly can't tell you what I have been busy doing. It is summer time and I feel like it is just another day of another month. We haven't been able to do much with the weather we have been having or with the week or so we were out of commission due to Camdon's freak sickness. It is almost August 1 and the time is just flying by. I haven't had a chance to actually enjoy myself and feel like we are constantly going going going or just busy with other commitments that we haven't had time to just relax and do what we want (or just what I want to do).

I have been really frustrated lately. Frustrated with life in general and nothing in particular. I am finding myself short tempered with things and taking things a little too serious. I am taking what people are saying to heart and that isn't good. I feel burnt out and I am just grasping the edge of the cliff. I need to have "me" time, but when you are a single parent "me" time is a hard thing to have.

Work is crazy busy, which I won't complain because I have a job, but it is also taking a toll on my patience and I am not liking the person I am becoming. I feel so distant from everyone and am constantly feeling like I have no time in the day for anything. I need to take my life back and stop dwelling on it all. There are people out there who have it worse off and I need to keep remembering that on a daily basis.

This week at work, one of the companies in my building hosted a Make a Wish child. I had never been to a party or seen a Make a Wish event, so I have to tell you that I had goosebumps the whole time I was eating lunch in the cafeteria. It made take a step back and realize that my life isn't that bad. My life could be worse off. My life could consist of having an incurable illness with myself or my child. My life could consist of being homeless or having my child taken from me. My life could be way worse off and it isn't, which I am truly grateful for!!!

Times are tough for everyone right now. The economy isn't very well and it just isn't getting better or so it seems. People are having to cut back on many things, which means that people are constantly being let go, which brings us to more cutbacks and more job losses. When is this cycle going to end? What happens to those that are losing everything? What happens when times do turn around? These people aren't getting things back that they HAD to give up. People aren't going to instantly be back on their feet. This is truly a scary time for everyone! It is sad that people are loosing their homes, cable, phones, cars, etc and are embarrassed that it is happening.....but what is happening to you is probably happening to at least 1 other person you know.

Camdon is talking up a storm.....I am thinking by the time the speech therapist calls for Camdon to go get checked he won't need it and will pass with flying colors. I am still in disbelief that we are on a 6 month waiting list and were number 75 when I called back in May. Potty training is going so well. We are 100% potty trained and I am loving it. Bed time has gone accident free (knocking on wood) and if he does have to go he actually wakes up to go. Last night around 130 am Camdon woke up to go potty (he typically sleeps thru the night), we went downstairs to pee and right back to bed. I am so proud of my little man for all his accomplishments recently (and in his 3 years on this earth).

Funky

Gosh it has been a while since the last post I did....this week has been so hectic and today is just not my day. I am in a horrible funk today and everything just isn't going my way as the day progresses.

I snapped at a friend today but stopped quick enough before I said something hurtful and that I would later regret (which I don't regret anything it just makes me who I am.....today would have been a lie on that one).

Positive for the day....Camdon is officially wearing big boy underwear and no more Pull Ups. I am super excited for him and very proud of him. Potty training wasn't that bad (a few days past 2 months). It was great when I just went to Walmart and didn't have to pick up any diapers/Pull Ups/Wipes.....such a money saver.

Life has been busy lately....haven't had time to even upload pictures from our day trips we have been taking, maybe I will get to that tonight or tomorrow.

Not Me! Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to http://www.mycharmingkids.net" to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

The weather in New England has been so crazy this summer, so when we had a hail storm on Tuesday I did not yell and think "Thank God my car is parked in the basement" while I was at work. Golf size hail balls falling wouldn't do that much damage to the cars in the parking lot, would they? Hahahaha.

Our company has a softball team in a area league. Camdon and I try to get to all the games since they are local and it is something outdoors to do, plus support my team. Tuesday they had a game and at the end I said that we would be grilling on Thursday since there was so many left over hot dogs and hamburgers from another event. I did not not bring the hot dogs and hamburgers to the game on Thursday to grill. I would never tell the guys we would have food and then not feed them when I was suppose to, that is just plain mean.

I did not have to take a dead bird out of the space between the bottom of my windshield and the hood when going to pick up takeout Chinese. I did not hit the bird, the bird actually hit my windshield as if it were committing suicide (that is the truth). I then did not use 5 baby wipes to grab it by the wing and throw it in the woods (wipes included). It would have been very sad if I actually had to do that and probably would have skeeved me out.

I did not get super excited when my son told me he had to poop and actually did in the potty today. That would mean we are actually making progress and almost completely done with diapers/Pull Ups. :-) I also did not allow Camdon to run around with no Pull Up or Underwear on to help know that he is really ready for big boy underwear. Who would let their child run around camo?

I also did not have my child pee in the woods while we were watching one of my company softball games this week. You just don't use the woods to go the bathroom when there is no place else to go......right?

On such a beautiful day, finally, I did not run thru the sprinkler with my son to cool off a little. What grown adult would do such a childish manuever.

I did not collaborate with my friend and her sister in law on how to throw my friend's husband in the pool without us going in. We also did not succeed in getting him in there, with only one of us going in with him (his wife). If I did such a thing I definitly wouldn't go to the Pier with them tomorrow in fear that he may try to throw me into the ocean.

What did you not do this week that you want to fess up to?

Not Me! Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Not Me! Monday was born out of MckMama's desire to admit some of her imperfections and reveal a few moments she'd rather forget. You may find it therapeutic to join in and do the same thing!

I did not look in my rear view mirror to see a car with blue lights flashing flying up behind me. This car with flashing blue lights did not also stop behind me when I pulled to the side of the road. I would never get pulled over for speeding, nope not me, I am always sticking with what the speed limit signs say.

I was not disappointed when my mother called sobbing that she needed me to get her a plane ticket home early. I love her and would never get upset when my mini vacation was cut short because she needed to come back from her journey across the US.

I did not get all stressed out because Camdon had his speech therapy evaluation. I mean I am the perfect parent and any issues he may have are not due to anything I do. I also didn't feel as if a 100lbs was lifted off my shoulders when the therapists informed me that Camdon was speaking at an age range older than what he is.

Aloha Friday

Welcome to this week’s edition of Aloha Friday.

In Hawaii, Aloha Friday is the day that Hawaiians take it easy and look forward to the weekend. So I thought that on Fridays I would take it easy on posting, too.

Therefore, I’ll focus on what we have planned for the weekend and end by asking a simple question for you to answer. Nothing that requires a lengthy response.

This week is my long weekend week. Every other week I get Friday off so it gives Camdon and I another day to spend together.

Friday, July 10th

Today is actually sunny! I am going to go get ready and head out the door with little man. I am not sure where we are going to go, but some place outdoors seems about right. Our Friday is usually just a low key day where we hang around or do errands. I am going to work on his potty training today too, since he has been staying dry in his Pull Up this week.

Saturday, July 11th

We have a 1st birthday party to go to. One of my close friends, and Camdon's sitter, daughters is turning 1 so we are going over to their house for a big bash. The kids get to go in the pools and the slip and slide. We all get to make ice cream sundae's and just celebrate in "baby's" 1st birthday.

Sunday, July 12th

The Tall Ships are coming to Boston (they actually arrived yesterday). I was thinking that we would drive down there and we could go to the Piers and check out the big ships. I am super excited and can't wait. These ships are ginormous and have sailed all over the world. They are the same type of ships (if not the real ships) that sailed the world hundreds of years ago.

The weather better cooperate this weekend. We have so many outdoor things planned. The weather hasn't been cooperating for the first half of this summer so I am praying it starts to cooperate now.

So now my question......

What types of things do you do when it isn't so nice outside?

Camdon and I watch movies together, paint, play dough, or venture to the mall or indoor playground.

If you’d like to participate, just post your own question on your blog and leave your response below. Don’t forget to visit the other participants! It’s a great way to make new bloggy friends!

Chugging right along....

I haven't posted lately on how potty training is going, I guess now is as good of a time as any. I am really proud of my little man....he is just chugging along on the potty training train. Today is only Thursday and I have received 2 emails this week (different days too) at work from Jen, the sitter, telling me that Camdon has pooped on the potty. WAY TO GO LITTLE MAN!!! I am so proud of him. His Pull Up has been dry for the most part lately and he is even telling me when he has to go pee. My little baby is growing up.

I started this task back on my vacation in May....it was May 15th to be exact. I knew it was going to take some time, hoping it would be a few day process and painless, but I didn't realize it was going to be this quick. For most people I know that have potty trained, boys and girls, it has been a pretty lengthy experience. I was praying that Camdon would be completely potty trained by the end of summer. I know I still have time and I am far from rushing or pushing him to do this.....but in the same aspect, I really don't want to buy anymore Pull Ups or wipes. I am running low on both and do not want to have to spend more money on these.

Tomorrow I have "off". I am working for a few hours in the morning, so while we are home I am going to have Camdon run around with nothing on his bottom half except for his PJ pants since it is rather chilly tonight. I am also debating on putting big boy underwear on him tomorrow so he can get use to that. I figure if he stays without a Pull Up on it will reinforce to him that he has to use the potty and can't go in his PJ's. This weekend is a little busy with a 1st bday party and I was hoping to go to Boston on Sunday, so while we are home I will have him Pull Up less and go from there.

So last night after dinner, we went to Target. As we are walking around Camdon starts doing the "pee pee" dance and kept asking "hold me". I knew he hadn't pooped all day so I was very eager to get him on the potty when the time came. The carriage had stuff in it and I just couldn't take his "dancing" anymore even though he was saying he didn't have to go, so I told him we were running to the bathroom. We get there and he says....."no pee pee". Uh sorry my friend I don't think so, lets just try. Well he didn't go. So we went back to shopping and I went back to having an eagle eye. Well we get to the other end of the store and Camdon decides that now is the time to say "Momma I have to pee pee". Okay buddy lets go....and we RUN to the other side of the store for him to say "no pee pee". I was so frustrated that we just ran across the store that he had to try again....and nothing. So we go back to finding Grandma who is shopping and 2 minutes later "Momma I have to pee pee". So I say "Camdon...do you really have to go because we have already tried twice?" and he says "UH NO". I guess it is just a game to him.

A game it is....hahahaha. Every time we go to one of my company's softball games lately he says he has to pee. I am not a fan of port-a-potties, but figured I would see if he would go a few weeks back....NOPE. I then tried to get him to go in the woody area where no one would see him....NOPE. So we are at the game Monday and he has to pee, so I take him in the woods (after about 3 other attempts) and he finally goes in the woods. YIPPEE!!! So tonight we are at the game and he tells me he has to pee, we walk over to the woods and he goes. He is getting it...he is figuring it all out. Well he then tells me he has to poop.....uhhhhh okay lets go to the woods (hesitantly). So we walk into the woods and I pull down his pants and Pull Up.....he tried going but nothing came out (in which I was happy because I wasn't prepared at all for this event).

Camdon is chugging along. Momma is proud of her little man. Potty training is shaping up and life is moving forward.

Thousand Words Thursday

Every Thursday I am going to post a picture that is powerful, that expresses emotion, and speaks volumes to me. Here's one that is worth a thousand words.

He has since gotten rid of his binky, but this was Christmas Eve while he was waiting for Santa to stop by and is the background on my blackberry.